PTSD Patrol honoring your feelings

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 28, 2020

Sometimes we have to honor our pain and loneliness. That is why I picked Neil Diamond I AM I SAID for the feature video today.

There was a report on military suicides being 20% higher than last year. That was like a dagger to my heart because I dedicated 38 years of my life to that cause. With all the nonsense getting the attention online, they couldn't find me anymore, so I thought as a 10 time civilian survivor, I may be of more use to regular people like me. With over 8 million Americans diagnosed with PTSD, they are getting less attention than the veterans. Right now, I am taking my own advise and honoring my feelings to go toward healing afterwards. #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

But I got an emptiness deep inside

And I've tried

But it won't let me go

And I'm not a man who likes to swear

But I never cared

For the sound of being alone

I AM I SAID

L.A.'s fine, the sun shines most the time

And the feeling is "lay back"

Palm trees grow and rents are low

But you know I keep thinkin' about

Making my way back

Well I'm New York City born and raised

But nowadays

I'm lost between two shores

L.A.'s fine, but it ain't home

New York's home

But it ain't mine no more

"I am"... I said

To no one there

And no one heard at all

Not even the chair

"I am"... I cried

"I am"... said I

And I am lost and I can't

Even say why

Leavin' me lonely still

Did you ever read about a frog

Who dreamed of bein' a king

And then became one

Well except for the names

And a few other changes

If you talk about me

The story is the same one

But I got an emptiness deep inside

And I've tried

But it won't let me go

And I'm not a man who likes to swear

But I never cared

For the sound of being alone

"I am"... I said

To no one there

And no one heard at all

Not even the chair

"I am"... I cried

"I am"... said I

And I am lost and I can't

Even say why

"I am"... I said

"I am"... I cried

"I am"

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Neil Diamond

I Am...I Said lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol videos back up tomorrow....I hope!

PTSD Patrol Update

Yesterday there was a system update for my computer...it crashed! It took all day to fix it. Sorry for no video or posts for a couple of days but working on fixing the rest. 

PTSD Patrol Long Train Running

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 24, 2020

(Feeling better and should be doing videos again tomorrow)

My husband and I have been married 36 years as of this month. Throughout all of the years, there is one thing that never stopped...and that is love for one another. Sometimes I don't like him and times he does not like me, but we never stopped loving.

Keep in mind that when we met, I knew what surviving trauma was like, but did not know about PTSD. By the time we got married, I knew all I needed to know and loved him even more than before. If you love someone, then you do whatever you can to help make their life easier and better because you were in it. If you really love them, then do the work to help them be happier!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

The song Long Train Running kept popping into my medicated brain because "without love where would you be now" is a question I never want to answer......

The Doobie Brothers - Long Train Running (official video)

Down around the corner, half a mile from here

See them long trains run, and you watch them disappear

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ove

You know I saw miss Lucy down along the tracks

She lost her home and her family and she won't be coming back

Without love, where would you be right now

Without lo-o-o-ove

Well the Illinois Central

And the Southern Central Freight

Got to keep on pushin' mama

You know they're running late

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ve

Well the Illinois Central

And the Southern Central Freight

Got to keep on pushin' mama

You know they're running late

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ve

Well the pistons keep on turning

And the wheels go round and round

The steel rails are cold and hard

For the miles that they go down

Without love, where would you be right now

Without lo-o-o-ve ooh

Where would you be now

Mmm, got to get you, baby baby, won't you move it down?

Won't you move it down?

Baby, baby, baby, baby, won't you move it down?

When the big train run

When the train is movin' on I got to keep on movin'

Keep on movin'

Won't you keep on movin'?

Gonna keep on movin'

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Tom Johnston

Long Train Runnin' lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc

Things will get easier!

PTSD Patrol "But too easy to say no"

PTSD Patrol 

Kathie Costos

September 23, 2020

These are troubling times in this country. It makes it worse if you are struggling to heal PTSD. People can be very cruel no matter what you do. They misjudge you, walk away from you and blame you for what is lousy in their own lives. 

It does not change because decades do. What does change is those who refuse to learn from the past, will forever be relegated to ranks of other feeble minded fools throughout history. In other words, the problem is not yours....it belongs to them.

Sometimes we find comfort knowing someone else understands what we are going through. It is just as necessary as knowing we can get out of the dark times too.

If you are on social media, and feel worse being with people you know, stop going into those groups.

Notice what they say and how they treat others, because that is how they show their true self.

Then break free from them because they will suck the life and joy out of you, wasting your time when you could be finding someone to give you hope again...and help you #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

(Yes, still sick but feeling better.)  

Easy To Be Hard

Three Dog Night

How can people be so heartless

How can people be so cruel

Easy to be hard

Easy to be cold

How can people have no feelings

How can they ignore their friends

Easy to be proud

Easy to say no

Especially people who care about strangers

Who care about evil and social injustice

Do you only care about being proud

How about I need a friend, I need a friend

How can people be so heartless

You know I'm hung up on you

Easy to be proud

Easy to say no

Especially people who care about strangers

Who care about evil and social injustice

Do you only care about being proud

How about I need a friend, I need a friend

How can people be so heartless

How can people be so cruel

Easy to be proud, easy to say no

Easy to be gone, easy to say no

Come on, easy to get read

Easy to say no

But too easy to be cold

Easy to say no

But too easy to say no

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Galt Mac Dermot / Gerome Ragni / James Rado

Easy to Be Hard lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC