PTSD Patrol no time for pain

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 29, 2020

There was a time when all I had time for was praying to God that my pain would end. It is one thing to have physical pain, but when you have spiritual pain, that wrecks everything!

It may sound strange to you, but there are a lot of "love" songs that I find spiritually healing. 

There are a lot of love songs that mean something deeper to me. There is a spiritual connection made with many of them. The feature video today is Carlie Simon "I Haven't Got Time For The Pain."

When I was having a really hard time spiritually, this song made me feel more hopeful about the next minutes in time. If you thing about some songs that mean more to you than others, you'll know exactly what I mean. So when you are in spiritual pain, find a song that makes you feel relief and you won't have time for the pain because you are filling yourself up with hope! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

All those crazy nights when I cried myself to sleep

Now melodrama never makes me weep anymore

'cause I haven't got time for the pain

I haven't got room for the pain

I haven't the need for the pain

Not since I've known you

You showed me how, how to leave myself behind

How to turn down the noise in my mind

Now I haven't got time for the pain

I haven't got room for the pain

I haven't the need for the pain

Not since I've known you

Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive

Though that's just how much it cost to survive in this world

'til you showed me how, how to fill my heart with love

How to open up and drink in all that white light

Pouring down from the heaven

I haven't got time for the pain

I haven't got room for the pain

I haven't the need for the pain

Not since I've known you

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Jacob Brackman / Carly Simon

Haven't Got Time for the Pain lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol honoring your feelings

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 28, 2020

Sometimes we have to honor our pain and loneliness. That is why I picked Neil Diamond I AM I SAID for the feature video today.

There was a report on military suicides being 20% higher than last year. That was like a dagger to my heart because I dedicated 38 years of my life to that cause. With all the nonsense getting the attention online, they couldn't find me anymore, so I thought as a 10 time civilian survivor, I may be of more use to regular people like me. With over 8 million Americans diagnosed with PTSD, they are getting less attention than the veterans. Right now, I am taking my own advise and honoring my feelings to go toward healing afterwards. #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

But I got an emptiness deep inside

And I've tried

But it won't let me go

And I'm not a man who likes to swear

But I never cared

For the sound of being alone

I AM I SAID

L.A.'s fine, the sun shines most the time

And the feeling is "lay back"

Palm trees grow and rents are low

But you know I keep thinkin' about

Making my way back

Well I'm New York City born and raised

But nowadays

I'm lost between two shores

L.A.'s fine, but it ain't home

New York's home

But it ain't mine no more

"I am"... I said

To no one there

And no one heard at all

Not even the chair

"I am"... I cried

"I am"... said I

And I am lost and I can't

Even say why

Leavin' me lonely still

Did you ever read about a frog

Who dreamed of bein' a king

And then became one

Well except for the names

And a few other changes

If you talk about me

The story is the same one

But I got an emptiness deep inside

And I've tried

But it won't let me go

And I'm not a man who likes to swear

But I never cared

For the sound of being alone

"I am"... I said

To no one there

And no one heard at all

Not even the chair

"I am"... I cried

"I am"... said I

And I am lost and I can't

Even say why

"I am"... I said

"I am"... I cried

"I am"

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Neil Diamond

I Am...I Said lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol videos back up tomorrow....I hope!

PTSD Patrol Update

Yesterday there was a system update for my computer...it crashed! It took all day to fix it. Sorry for no video or posts for a couple of days but working on fixing the rest. 

PTSD Patrol Long Train Running

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 24, 2020

(Feeling better and should be doing videos again tomorrow)

My husband and I have been married 36 years as of this month. Throughout all of the years, there is one thing that never stopped...and that is love for one another. Sometimes I don't like him and times he does not like me, but we never stopped loving.

Keep in mind that when we met, I knew what surviving trauma was like, but did not know about PTSD. By the time we got married, I knew all I needed to know and loved him even more than before. If you love someone, then you do whatever you can to help make their life easier and better because you were in it. If you really love them, then do the work to help them be happier!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

The song Long Train Running kept popping into my medicated brain because "without love where would you be now" is a question I never want to answer......

The Doobie Brothers - Long Train Running (official video)

Down around the corner, half a mile from here

See them long trains run, and you watch them disappear

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ove

You know I saw miss Lucy down along the tracks

She lost her home and her family and she won't be coming back

Without love, where would you be right now

Without lo-o-o-ove

Well the Illinois Central

And the Southern Central Freight

Got to keep on pushin' mama

You know they're running late

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ve

Well the Illinois Central

And the Southern Central Freight

Got to keep on pushin' mama

You know they're running late

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ve

Well the pistons keep on turning

And the wheels go round and round

The steel rails are cold and hard

For the miles that they go down

Without love, where would you be right now

Without lo-o-o-ve ooh

Where would you be now

Mmm, got to get you, baby baby, won't you move it down?

Won't you move it down?

Baby, baby, baby, baby, won't you move it down?

When the big train run

When the train is movin' on I got to keep on movin'

Keep on movin'

Won't you keep on movin'?

Gonna keep on movin'

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Tom Johnston

Long Train Runnin' lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc

Things will get easier!