PTSD Patrol The Healing Letter

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

October 5, 2020

The feature video today is Bruce Springsteen Letter To You. There are many times we have a lot to say to people who are not in our lives anymore. For me, I wrote a letter to myself when I was a lot younger and things were really hard. I let "me" know all the things I needed to hear back then and offer hope of how our life would turn out. It was healing even though I had to burn it instead of send it. There are a lot of times when we need to do that for ourselves, not for the person we want to say it to. If you have PTSD, then there may be a lot of things you need to say, and this really helps!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Letter to You

Bruce Springsteen

'Neath a crown of mongrel trees

I pulled that bothersome thread

Got down on my knees

Grabbed my pen and bowed my head

Tried to summon all that my heart finds true

And send it in my letter to you

Things I found out through hard times and good

I wrote 'em all out in ink and blood

Dug deep in my soul and signed my name true

And sent it in my letter to you

In my letter to you

I took all my fears and doubts

In my letter to you

All the hard things I found out

In my letter to you

All that I've found true

And I sent it in my letter to you

I took all the sunshine and rain

All my happiness and all my pain

The dark evening stars

And the morning sky of blue

And I sent it in my letter to you

And I sent it in my letter to you

In my letter to you

I took all my fears and doubts

In my letter to you

All the hard things that I found out

In my letter to you

All that I found true

And I sent it in my letter to you

I sent it in my letter to you

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Bruce Springsteen

Letter to You lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol Homeward Bound

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

October 4, 2020

Today my husband and I took a drive to Old Orchard Beach in Maine. We haven't been there since we were kids and it felt strangely wonderful to have so many memories come flooding back. We're different now. We didn't even know each other growing up in our city but we shared some of the same experiences. It was great to see how little it had changed after all these years, but after 15 years in Florida, both of us had the same reaction sitting on the bench...while we left New England for a time...it never left us. Feature video is Homeward Bound by Simon and Garfunkel.

If you have PTSD, you may think that you cannot be homeward bound, but what you need to remember is, the person you were, was with you the whole time and pieces of that life are with you always. 

If you had bad times, try to let them go and hang onto the good memories. I had some miserable times in my life but there were some that were really wonderful. Simple things like the smell in my house when my Mom made Chocolate Chip cookies from scratch. Or when she cooked Sunday dinner for our huge extended family. The sound of laughter when her and her sisters and their families came over. All the trips we took to different places in New England, like Old Orchard Beach.

Those are the type of memories that you should hang onto for when the bad memories come back.

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

I'm sittin' in the railway station

Got a ticket to my destination

On a tour of one-night stands

My suitcase and guitar in hand

And every stop is neatly planned

For a poet and a one-man band

Homeward bound

I wish I was

Homeward bound

Home where my thought's escapin'

Home where my music's playin'

Home where my love lies waitin'

Silently for me

Every day's an endless stream

Of cigarettes and magazines

And each town looks the same to me

The movies and the factories

And every stranger's face I see

Reminds me that I long to be

Homeward bound

I wish I was

Homeward bound

Home where my thought's escapin'

Home where my music's playin'

Home where my love lies waitin'

Silently for me

Tonight I'll sing my songs again

I'll play the game and pretend

But all my words come back to me

In shades of mediocrity

Like emptiness in harmony

I need someone to comfort me

Homeward bound

I wish I was

Homeward bound

Home where my thought's escapin'

Home where my music's playin'

Home where my love lies waitin'

Silently for me

Silently for me

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Paul Simon

Homeward Bound lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol Tucson Train

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
October 3, 2020

Today the feature video is Bruce Springsteen Tucson Train. It is about a relationship that fell apart but they were getting back together again. Believe it or not, but a lot of relationships that were destroyed by PTSD, were put back together again! Once the survivor got help to heal, and the people that mattered to them understood what went wrong, they stopped trying to blame one another and started to support each other! Fabulous results happen all the time.

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Tucson Train

I got so down and out in 'Frisco

Tired of the pills and the rain

I picked up, headed for the sunshine

I left a good thing behind

Seemed all of our love was in vain

My baby's coming in on the Tucson train

I come here looking for a new life

One I wouldn't have to explain

To that voice that keeps me awake at night

When a little peace would make everything right

If I could just turn off my brain

Now my baby's coming in on the Tucson train

We fought hard over nothing

We fought 'til nothing remained

I've carried that nothing for a long time

Now I carry my operator's license

And spend my days just running this crane

My baby's coming in on the Tucson train

Hard work'll clear your mind and body

The hard sun will burn out the pain

If they're looking for me, tell 'em buddy

I'm waiting down at the station

Just praying to the five-fifteen

I'll wait all God's creation

Just to show her a man can change

Now my baby's coming in on the Tucson train

On the Tucson train

On the Tucson train

Waiting on the five-fifteen

Here she comes

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Bruce Springsteen

Tucson Train lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol Ventura Highway

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

October 2, 2020

Today the feature video is a America's Ventura Highway."You're gonna go I know 'Cause the free wind is blowin' through Your hair And the days surround your daylight There Seasons crying no despair." to remind you that things can get a lot better than they are right now! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Chewing on a piece of grass

Walking down the road

Tell me, how long you gonna stay here Joe?

Some people say this town don't look

Good in snow

You don't care, I know

Ventura Highway in the sunshine

Where the days are longer

The nights are stronger

Than moonshine

You're gonna go I know

'Cause the free wind is blowin' through

Your hair

And the days surround your daylight

There

Seasons crying no despair

Alligator lizards in the air

Wishin' on a falling star

Watchin' for the early train

Sorry boy, but I've been hit by

Purple rain

Aw, come on Joe, you can always

Change your name

Thanks a lot son, just the same

Ventura Highway

In the sunshine

Where the days are longer

The nights are stronger

Than moonshine

You're gonna go I know

'Cause the free wind is blowin' through

Your hair

And the days surround you daylight

There

Seasons crying no despair

Alligator lizards in the air

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Dewey Bunnell

Ventura Highway lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc 

PTSD Patrol "everyday it seems a little stronger"

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

October 1, 2020

Yesterday was my 36th wedding anniversary! Today's feature video is James Taylor's "Everyday" because it reflects all the changes we have gone through over all these years. 

Some thought it wouldn't last, including a lot of years when we also thought it was impossible. Any marriage is hard but when you add in PTSD, along with everything else that comes with it, too many marriages fall apart. It is like living on a rollercoaster!

You can read about most of it in the book I wrote a long time ago, FOR THE LOVE OF JACK, HIS WAR/MY BATTLE but for now, know that nothing is impossible when you know and love one another.

Everyday, it's getting closer,

Going faster than a roller coaster.

A love like yours would surely come my way.

Everyday, seems a little faster,

All my friends, they say go on up and ask her.

A love like yours would surely come my way.

Everyday it seems a little stronger,

Everyday it lasts a little longer.

Come what may, do you ever long for

True love from me?

Everyday seems a little closer,

Going faster than a roller coaster.

A love like yours would surely come my way.

A love like yours would surely come my way, Everyday.

Everyday it seems a little stronger,

Everyday it lasts a little longer.

Come what may, do you ever long for

True love from me?

Like I long from you baby.

Everyday seems a little closer,

Going faster than a roller coaster.

A love like yours would surely come my way.

Written by: Buddy Holly, Norman Petty

Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Peermusic Publishing