PTSD Patrol racing with destiny

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 14, 2020 

I broke my heart

Fought every gain

To taste the sweet

I face the pain

I rise and fall

Yet through it all

This much remains

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel

I will feel eternity

Those are the words from the feature video today, the incomparable Whitney Houston's One Moment In Time.

Do those words sound like you and your life now? If you've been watching these videos and discovering what you needed to know about PTSD, I believe you see yourself clearly.

Beginning to taste the sweet may be even sweeter because of the bitterness you used to know. It may be because the pain you felt for far too long has also made you feel this aliveness more profoundly. 

I hope you have far more than one moment in time discovering you can be more than you thought you could be, and if you do, pass it on so others can have these moments too!

Remember it is your life and you need to get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Each day I live

I want to be

A day to give

The best of me

I'm only one

But not alone

My finest day

Is yet unknown

I broke my heart

Fought every gain

To taste the sweet

I face the pain

I rise and fall

Yet through it all

This much remains

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel

I will feel eternity

I've lived to be

The very best

I want it all

No time for less

I've laid the plans

Now lay the chance

Here in my hands

Give me one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel

I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime

If you seize that one moment in time

Make it shine

Give me one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will be

I will be

I will be free

I will be

I will be free

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Albert Louis Hammond / John Bettis

One Moment in Time lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. 

PTSD Patrol dancing in the driver's seat

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 13, 2020

Friday the 13th in this crazy year of 2020....most people think it is an unlucky day. The Scotsman has a great article on this.

Why is number 13 considered unlucky?
‘Unlucky 13’ has been a superstition since the middle ages when Christians associated it with the number of guests at the last supper - the night before Jesus was crucified.
Judas, the 13th guest to attend the dinner, betrayed Jesus.

For me, I don't look at it that way. I look at it as possibilities because of what Jesus and the 12 managed to do in 3 short years, along with the 72 others. 72 others? Yes. It is in Luke 10

Jesus Sends Out the Seventy-Two
10 After this the Lord appointed seventy-two[a] others and sent them two by two ahead of him to every town and place where he was about to go. 2 He told them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field. 3 Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves. 

There are a lot of things the most people think are true, and let others form their own thoughts instead of letting you find your own. If they tell you that you are doomed because you have PTSD or will have an unlucky life, or worse, are suffering because you deserve it, they know nothing. It may make them feel better taking you down or seeing you suffer but you are the only one who can defeat their delusion and prove them wrong.

You are on the road to healing and can leave them behind if they will not help you. Or, you can help them be happy too. That is also in your power to decide.

Stress is also something that you can decide to have or let go of, even if it is only for a little while.

I was driving earlier today and feeling stress in my neck when the song from Taste of Honey came on. I ended up dancing in the driver's seat. The rest of the drive home, was stress free.

Music can do that if you let it. Everyday find a song that makes you want to dance, even if it is in your chair. Let it lift you up from the mood you were in, even if it only lasts for a little while.

The more you do it, the more you take power away from PTSD and feed the power that does in fact belong to you.

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD 

If you're thinkin' you're too cool to boogie

Boy oh boy have I got news for you

Everybody here tonight must boogie

Let me tell ya, you are no exception to the rule

Get on up, on the floor 'Cause we're gonna boogie oogie oogie

'Till you just can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

You can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

Listen to the music

There's no time to waste let's get the show on the road

Listen to the music and let your body flow

The sooner we begin the longer we got to groove

Listen to the music and let your body move

Now get on up, on the floor

'Cause we're gonna boogie oogie oogie

'Till you just can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

You can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

Listen to my bass here

Get down boogie oogie oogie

Get down boogie oogie oogie

Get down boogie oogie oogie

Get down

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Janice Marie Johnson / Perry Kibble

Boogie Oogie Oogie - Single Version 2; Digitally Remastered 99 lyrics © Music Sales Corporation 

Bonus from The Addams Family!

a monster classic.. Nobody But Me / Human Beinz ..addams family ..carolyn jones .. lurch .. gomez

PTSD Patrol Stopping These Dreams

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 12, 2020

But all I remember

Are the dreams in the mist

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Today the feature video is Heart These Dreams.

Every second of the night you do live another life when you have PTSD. Your dreams end up being nightmares because in the darkness, it tries to take over. Like when a young child dreams about monsters under their bed, it returns. 

One parent may tell them that monsters are not real, then tell them to get back in their bed. A smart parent will explain that monster is a coward because it is afraid of the light. They say, "Turn the light on, stomp your feet on the floor and tell that coward to go away."

You can change the nightmares by turning on the light and confronting that monster with the knowledge of where its power comes from. Take that power away and stop feeding it with your fear. Repel it with knowing that you survived it and there is no way in hell you will let it take over the life you have waiting for you to live!

Remember, it is your life....get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Spare a little candle

Save some light for me

Figures up ahead

Moving in the trees

White skin in linen

Perfume on my wrist

And the full moon that hangs over

These dreams in the mist

Darkness on the edge

Shadows where I stand

I search for the time

On a watch with no hands

I want to see you clearly

Come closer than this

But all I remember

Are the dreams in the mist

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Is it cloak and dagger

Could it be spring or fall?

I walk without a cut

Through a stained glass wall

Weaker in my eyesight

The candle in my grip

And words that have no form

Are falling from my lips

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

There's something out there

I can't resist

I need to hide away from the pain

There's something out there

I can't resist

The sweetest song is silence

That I've ever heard

Funny how your feet

In dreams never touch the earth

In a wood full of princes

Freedom is a kiss

But the prince hides his face

From dreams in the mist

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Bernie Taupin / Martin Page

These Dreams lyrics © Little Mole Music, Imagem London Ltd., Concord Copyrights London Limited 

November 11, 2020 Veterans Day

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 11, 2020

Today is Veterans Day and that is why the feature video is Elton John Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me because that is exactly what we have done to veterans.

  

But these cuts I have 

They need love (they need love, they need love)

To help them heal

Oh, don't let the sun go down on me

Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see

I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free, oh

'Cause losing everything is like the sun going down on me

Don't let the sun go down on me

When we survive the traumatic events that cause PTSD, we do not think about our veterans. Had it not been for Vietnam veterans returning from combat, no one would be doing much about what trauma does to the survivors. They came home and fought for the research and funding...that created all the responses we receive. From trauma units and crisis intervention teams, to mental health professionals and peer support, none of that would have happened, but we do not think about any of that.

Vietnam veterans fought for their generation, and all those who came before them as well as those they knew would come after them. The rest of Americans benefitted from their battles, and so did the rest of the world.

So from PTSD Patrol and all the veterans in our families, thank you! Thank you for all you were willing to do for all of us!

I can't light no more of your darkness

All my pictures seem to fade to black and white

I'm growing tired and time stands still before me

Frozen here on the ladder of my life

It's much too late to save myself from falling

I took a chance and changed your way of life

But you misread my meaning when I met you

Closed the door and left me blinded by the light

Don't let the sun go down on me

Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see

I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free, oh

But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

I can't find

Oh, the right romantic line

But see me once and see the way I feel

Don't discard me, baby don't

Just because you think I mean, you harm

(Just because you think I mean you harm, oh)

But these cuts I have (cuts I have)

They need love (they need love, they need love) 

To help them heal

Oh, don't let the sun go down on me

Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see

I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free, oh

'Cause losing everything is like the sun going down on me

Don't let the sun go down on me

Although I search myself, it's always someone else that I see, yeah

I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free baby, oh

'Cause losing everything is like the sun going down on me

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Bernie Taupin / Elton John

Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

For our veterans and all those who risked their lives for the rest of us....

PTSD Parol Carry On healing

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 10, 2020

Carry on, my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more

Today the feature video is Kansas Carry On My Wayward Son! There is a pain that is deeper than crying. That is when PTSD caused a wall to built around your heart and traps the pain behind it. It also prevents good feeling from getting in. They cannot break through the wall and there is no room for it to get in, even if it could.

When you are healing, that wall begins to crack. Then it starts to fall apart rushing all those bad feelings out of you, until there is only room for good ones to take their proper place in your life.

Then there comes a day when you don't need to cry anymore. That is a wonderful feeling and so much better than just feeling misery.

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

REMEMBER IT IS YOUR LIFE....GET IN AN DRIVE!

Carry on, my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more

Once I rose above the noise and confusion

Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion

I was soaring ever higher

But I flew too high

Though my eyes could see, I still was a blind man

Though my mind could think, I still was a mad man

I hear the voices when I'm dreaming

I can hear them say

Carry on, my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason

My charade is the event of the season

And if I claim to be a wise man, well

It surely means that I don't know

On a stormy sea of moving emotion

Tossed about, I'm like a ship on the ocean

I set a course for winds of fortune

But I hear the voices say

Carry on my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more, no

Carry on, you will always remember

Carry on, nothing equals the splendor

Now your life's no longer empty

Surely heaven waits for you

Carry on, my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry, don't you cry no more

No more

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Kerry Livgren

Carry on Wayward Son lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC