PTSD Patrol Don't Give Up

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 22, 2020

When you believe in yourself, it sucks when others do not believe in you too. You know the right thing to do, and when it gets hard to do it, it is easier to just give up...but not better.

I know what that is like. I have over 500 videos up on YouTube and lost count on how many posts, but there are not many people who supported me over the years. I still believe in doing the right thing. 

When I met my husband, people didn't think it would last but we've been together for 38 years and married for over 36...because we believed. We believed in each other and got through the darkest times together.

"Even when nobody else believes, I'm mot grim' down easily" and that is why the feature song today is Andy Grammar Don't Give Up On Me.

It would be easier to do the right thing if you have support and someone to help you, but don't let that stop you. That is how miracles happen, Everything that has been achieved only happened because the people trying to do it, did not give up on themselves. 

Don't let PTSD stop you from believing in yourself!

I won't give up on you and hope you don't give up on me!

Remember, it is your life, get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

I will fight

I will fight for you

I always do until my heart

Is black and blue

And I will stay

I will stay with you

We'll make it to the other side

Like lovers do

I'll reach my hands out in the dark

And wait for yours to interlock

I'll wait for you

I'll wait for you

'Cause I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not yet

Even when I'm down to my last breath

Even when they say there's nothin' left

So don't give up on

I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not me

Even when nobody else believes

I'm not goin' down that easily

So don't give up on me

And I will hold

I'll hold onto you

No matter what this world'll throw

It won't shake me loose

I'll reach my hands out in the dark

And wait for yours to interlock

I'll wait for you

I'll wait for you

'Cause I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not yet

Even when I'm down to my last breath

Even when they say there's nothin' left

So don't give up on

I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not me

Even when nobody else believes

I'm not goin' down that easily

So don't give up on me

Whoa, whoa

Whoa, whoa

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

I will fight

I will fight for you

I always do until my heart

Is black and blue

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Andrew Charles Grammer / Bram Inscore / Jacob Torrey / San Farrar

Don't Give up on Me lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc, BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. 

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I'm not enough

Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up

Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?

Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know, ooh oh

You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing

You say I am strong when I think I am weak

And You say I am held when I am falling short

And when I don't belong, oh, You say I am Yours

And I believe (I), oh, I believe (I)

What You say of me (I)

I believe

The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me

In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, ooh oh

You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing

You say I am strong when I think I am weak

And You say I am held when I am falling short

When I don't belong, oh, You say I am Yours

And I believe (I), oh, I believe (I)

What You say of me (I)

Oh, I believe

Taking all I have and now I'm layin' it at Your feet

You'll have every failure God, You'll have every victory, ooh oh

You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing

You say I am strong when I think I am weak

You say I am held when I am falling short

When I don't belong, oh, You say I am Yours

And I believe (I), oh, I believe (I)

What You say of me (I)

I believe

Oh, I believe (I), yes, I believe (I)

What You say of me (I)

I believe (oh)

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Jason Ingram / Lauren Daigle / Paul Brendon Mabury

You Say lyrics © Essential Music Publishing

Lauren Daigle - You Say (Official Music Video)

PTSD Patrol Tell Them About It

PTSD Patrol
Kathis Costos
November 21, 2020

Today the feature video is Billy Joel Tell Her About it! When you have PTSD and you are trying to hide what is going on with you, the person you love, the people in your family, will have no idea what is going on with you. Most people have no clue what PTSD is and have even less of an idea about what you are experiencing. TELL THEM ABOUT IT!

If you try to hide it, they can see the changes and they wonder what you're hiding. Did you stop loving them. Did you find someone else? What did they do wrong to cause you to act the way you are? It isn't fair to them.

When you push them away, they push you away and sooner or later, you have no one to help you. You are destroying a good relationship instead of building one.

TELL THEM ABOUT IT, trust them enough to tell them about it and yes, even share your crazy dreams.

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD.

Listen boy

I don't want to see you let a good thing 

Slip away

You know I don't like watching 

Anybody make the same mistakes 

I made

She's a real nice girl 

And she's always there for you 

But a nice girl wouldn't tell you what you should do

Listen boy 

I'm sure that you think you got it all 

Under control

You don't want somebody telling you 

The way to stay in someone's soul

You're a big boy now 

You'll never let her go 

But that's just the kind of thing 

She ought to know

Tell her about it 

Tell her everything you feel 

Give her every reason to accept 

That you're for real

Tell her about it 

Tell her all your crazy dreams 

Let her know you need her 

Let her know how much she means

Listen boy 

It's not automatically a certain guarantee 

To insure yourself 

You've got to provide communication constantly

When you love someone 

You're always insecure 

And there's only one good way 

To reassure

Tell her about it 

Let her know how much you care 

When she can't be with you 

Tell her you wish you were there

Tell her about it 

Every day before you leave 

Pay her some attention 

Give her something to believe

'Cause now and then 

She'll get to worrying 

Just because you haven't spoken 

For so long 

Though you may not have done anything 

Will that be a consolation when she's gone

Listen boy 

It's good information from a man 

Who's made mistakes

Just a word or two that she gets from you 

Could be the difference that it makes

She's a trusting soul 

She's put her trust in you 

But a girl like that won't tell you 

What you should do

Tell her about it 

Tell her everything you feel 

Give her every reason 

To accept that you're for real

Tell her about it 

Tell her all your crazy dreams 

Let her know you need her 

Let her know how much she means

Tell her about it 

Tell her how you feel right now 

Tell her about it 

The girl don't want to wait too long 

You got to tell her about it 

Tell her now and you won't go wrong 

You got to tell her about it 

Before it gets too late 

You got to tell her about it 

You know the girl don't want 

To wait, you got to 

Tell her about it

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Billy Joel

Tell Her About It lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol And, feelin' good was easy

PTSD Patrol 

Kathie Costos 

November 20, 2020

Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose

Nothin', don't mean nothin' hon' if it ain't free, no no

Today the feature video is Janis Joplin, Me and Bobby McGee.  "Feeling good was easy" even though as the lyrics show, it sounds like their life together was not so easy. It was more of the state of the mind they were in where they were free to go wherever they wanted to, even though the journey itself was hard.

People assume that after you survive something, feeling good should be easy. They tell you to get over it and enjoy your life, but when you have PTSD that is the hardest thing to do. Feeling good is not so easy for you.

It is hard but you can achieve it. You can be happier than you have been because everything that you are, is still inside of you. So, if you were normal happy, you can be happy again. If little things made you feel wonderful, they can again.

I remember one day when I was at work before dawn. I was in the office by myself, put on the coffee and started to open the blinds. As I walked to the back door, the sun just started to rise. The sky became a brilliant mix of purple and red. I stood there for the longest time in awe. I could feel it in my soul!

That was after many times facing death and my ex husband trying to kill me...then stalking me. I stood at that door, looking at the engagement ring on my finger and I knew everything would be OK. 38 years later, no matter what hardships we've been through, we found the "home" we were looking for with each other.

Had I not been ready, stronger because I healed, that day would have never come. Had I not lived through everything I did, I wouldn't have been able to help my husband heal too!

Don't trade all your tomorrows for yesterdays you refuse to heal from.

Remember it is your life, get in and drive it! BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Busted flat in Baton Rouge, waitin' for a train

And I's feelin' near as faded as my jeans

Bobby thumbed a diesel down, just before it rained

It rode us all the way to New Orleans

I pulled my harpoon out of my dirty red bandanna

I was playin' soft while Bobby sang the blues, yeah

Windshield wipers slappin' time, I was holdin' Bobby's hand in mine

We sang every song that driver knew

Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose

Nothin', don't mean nothin' hon' if it ain't free, no no

And, feelin' good was easy, Lord, when he sang the blues

You know, feelin' good was good enough for me

Good enough for me and my Bobby McGee

From the Kentucky coal mine to the California sun

There Bobby shared the secrets of my soul

Through all kinds of weather, through everything we done

Yeah, Bobby baby kept me from the cold

One day up near Salinas, Lord, I let him slip away

He's lookin' for that home, and I hope he finds it

But, I'd trade all of my tomorrows, for a single yesterday

To be holdin' Bobby's body next to mine

Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose

Nothin', that's all that Bobby left me, yeah

But, feelin' good was easy, Lord, when he sang the blues

Hey, feelin' good was good enough for me, mm-hmm

Good enough for me and my Bobby McGee

La da da

La da da da

La da da da da da da da

La da da da da da da da

Bobby McGee, yeah

La da da da da da da

La da da da da da da

La da da da da da da

Bobby McGee, yeah

La da La la da da la da da la da da

La da da da da da da da da

Hey, my Bobby

Oh, my Bobby McGee, yeah

La la la la la la la la

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

Hey, my Bobby

Oh, my Bobby McGee, yeah

Well, I call him my lover, call him my man

I said, I call him my lover did the best I can, c'mon

Hey now, Bobby now

Hey now, Bobby McGee, yeah

Woo

La da, la da, la da, la da, la da, la da, la da, la la

Hey, hey, hey Bobby McGee, yeah

La da, la da, la da, la da, la da, la da, la da, la

Hey, hey, hey, Bobby McGee, yeah

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Fred L. Foster / Kris Kristofferson

Me and Bobby McGee lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Me and Boddy McGee

TO LOVE SOMEBODY by Janis Joplin

PTSD Patrol Can't Hurry Healing

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 19, 2020

Today the feature video is another chair dancing song, Phil Collins You Can't Hurry Love.

When you have PTSD, it can be very lonely. A lot of relationships fall apart, so you are facing your pain alone. There comes a time when all you can think about is how much you want someone else in your life, but if you have not started to heal, then that new relationship will not work. When you love someone, you want to give them the best of yourself, but if it is trapped behind that wall of pain, and you are not ready, you have doomed that relationship before it even had a chance to begin.

After my ex-husband tried to kill me, the last thing I wanted was another relationship. After dating, I missed having someone in my life, but I was already healing and sure that I was ready when I met my second husband 38 years ago, the man I am still married to.

His first marriage fell apart too. We were ready for each other and then healed together.  He is a Vietnam veteran with PTSD, so maybe it was a little easier for me to understand what he was going through, just as he was able to understand what I was going through,

There are veterans who have had multiple marriages because they never invested the time in healing so they were able to give anyone the best part of themselves. You cannot hurry healing and you cannot hurry love but when you are ready, that new relationship can be so much stronger than anything you ever imagined it could be!

Remember, it is your life, get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

I need love, love

Oh, ease my mind

And I need to find time

Someone to call mine

My mama said, "you can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait"

She said, "love don't come easy

But it's a game of give and take"

You can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait

Just trust in a good time

No matter how long it takes

How many heartaches must I stand

Before I find the love to let me live again

Right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on

When I feel my strength, ooh, it's almost gone

I remember mama said, "you can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait"

She said, "love don't come easy

It's a game of give and take"

How long must I wait

How much more must I take

Before loneliness

Will cause my heart, heart to break

No, I can't bear to live my life alone

I grow impatient for a love to call my own

But when I feel that i, I can't go on

Well these precious words keep me hanging on

I remember mama said, "you can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait"

She said, "love don't come easy

But it's a game of give and take"

You can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait

Just trust in a good time

No matter how long it takes

Now wait

Now love, love don't come easy

But I keep on waiting

Anticipating for that soft voice

To talk to me at night

For some tender arms

Hold me tight

I keep waiting

Ooh, till that day

But it ain't easy (love don't come easy)

No, you know it ain't easy

My mama said you can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait

She said "love don't come easy

But it's a game of give and take"

You can't hurry love

No, you'll just have to wait

She said "love don't come easy

But it's a game of give and take"

You can't hurry love, no you'll just have to wait

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Brian Holland / Lamont Dozier / Edward Jr. Holland

You Can't Hurry Love lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC 

PTSD Patrol head on the highway toward healing

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 18, 2020

Were you born to be wild or was your imagination? I remember as a young kid in school reading history books and imagination what it was like to be them. What was it like to be the people who decided they didn't want to be under British rule anymore? They knew that they would be hated by people they knew but it was worth it to them to lose them in order to gain freedom for everyone. They were willing to pay whatever price they had to pay.

When I read books about different parts of the world, I thought about how wonderful it would be to see all those places and experience all the beauty around the world. My imagination ran wild with possibilities.

Your imagination was also born to be wild. Sometimes it can be a bad thing, when doubts and fears flood your thoughts, trapping you with all the pain PTSD caused. Yet when your imagination is fueled with hope, then you see the obstacles but figure out a way to either get over them or get around them.

What is your wild mind trying to tell you about this ride?

I like smoke and lightnin'

Heavy metal thunder

Racin' with the wind

And the feelin' that I'm under

The only limits you have are the ones you self impose. Time to "get your motor runnin'" and head up highway to healing!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Steppenwolf - Born To Be Wild (Easy Rider) (1969) 

Get your motor runnin'

Head out on the highway

Lookin' for adventure

And whatever comes our way

Yeah, darlin', go make it happen

Take the world in a love embrace

Fire all of your guns at once and

Explode into space

I like smoke and lightnin'

Heavy metal thunder

Racin' with the wind

And the feelin' that I'm under

Yeah, darlin', go make it happen

Take the world in a love embrace

Fire all of your guns at once and

Explode into space

Like a true nature's child

We were born, born to be wild

We can climb so high

I never wanna die

Born to be wild

Born to be wild

Get your motor runnin'

Head out on the highway

We're lookin' for adventure

And whatever comes our way

Yeah, darlin' go make it happen

Take the world in a love embrace

Fire all of your guns at once and

Explode into space

Like a true nature's child

We were born, born to be wild

We can climb so high

I never wanna die

Born to be wild

Born to be wild

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Mars Bonfire

Born to Be Wild lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group