PTSD Patrol Long Train Running

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 24, 2020

(Feeling better and should be doing videos again tomorrow)

My husband and I have been married 36 years as of this month. Throughout all of the years, there is one thing that never stopped...and that is love for one another. Sometimes I don't like him and times he does not like me, but we never stopped loving.

Keep in mind that when we met, I knew what surviving trauma was like, but did not know about PTSD. By the time we got married, I knew all I needed to know and loved him even more than before. If you love someone, then you do whatever you can to help make their life easier and better because you were in it. If you really love them, then do the work to help them be happier!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

The song Long Train Running kept popping into my medicated brain because "without love where would you be now" is a question I never want to answer......

The Doobie Brothers - Long Train Running (official video)

Down around the corner, half a mile from here

See them long trains run, and you watch them disappear

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ove

You know I saw miss Lucy down along the tracks

She lost her home and her family and she won't be coming back

Without love, where would you be right now

Without lo-o-o-ove

Well the Illinois Central

And the Southern Central Freight

Got to keep on pushin' mama

You know they're running late

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ve

Well the Illinois Central

And the Southern Central Freight

Got to keep on pushin' mama

You know they're running late

Without love, where would you be now

Without lo-o-o-ve

Well the pistons keep on turning

And the wheels go round and round

The steel rails are cold and hard

For the miles that they go down

Without love, where would you be right now

Without lo-o-o-ve ooh

Where would you be now

Mmm, got to get you, baby baby, won't you move it down?

Won't you move it down?

Baby, baby, baby, baby, won't you move it down?

When the big train run

When the train is movin' on I got to keep on movin'

Keep on movin'

Won't you keep on movin'?

Gonna keep on movin'

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Tom Johnston

Long Train Runnin' lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc

Things will get easier!

PTSD Patrol "But too easy to say no"

PTSD Patrol 

Kathie Costos

September 23, 2020

These are troubling times in this country. It makes it worse if you are struggling to heal PTSD. People can be very cruel no matter what you do. They misjudge you, walk away from you and blame you for what is lousy in their own lives. 

It does not change because decades do. What does change is those who refuse to learn from the past, will forever be relegated to ranks of other feeble minded fools throughout history. In other words, the problem is not yours....it belongs to them.

Sometimes we find comfort knowing someone else understands what we are going through. It is just as necessary as knowing we can get out of the dark times too.

If you are on social media, and feel worse being with people you know, stop going into those groups.

Notice what they say and how they treat others, because that is how they show their true self.

Then break free from them because they will suck the life and joy out of you, wasting your time when you could be finding someone to give you hope again...and help you #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

(Yes, still sick but feeling better.)  

Easy To Be Hard

Three Dog Night

How can people be so heartless

How can people be so cruel

Easy to be hard

Easy to be cold

How can people have no feelings

How can they ignore their friends

Easy to be proud

Easy to say no

Especially people who care about strangers

Who care about evil and social injustice

Do you only care about being proud

How about I need a friend, I need a friend

How can people be so heartless

You know I'm hung up on you

Easy to be proud

Easy to say no

Especially people who care about strangers

Who care about evil and social injustice

Do you only care about being proud

How about I need a friend, I need a friend

How can people be so heartless

How can people be so cruel

Easy to be proud, easy to say no

Easy to be gone, easy to say no

Come on, easy to get read

Easy to say no

But too easy to be cold

Easy to say no

But too easy to say no

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Galt Mac Dermot / Gerome Ragni / James Rado

Easy to Be Hard lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

PTSD Patrol Don't Give Up On Me

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 22, 2020

(Still sick and now pulled muscles from coughing....)

I was thinking about what video to put up today along with knowing one from me wouldn't be a good idea. Wouldn't be very inspirational. Today I went grocery shopping because the meds were helping enough that I could breathe easier. 

I had my mask on, which was good since I was coughing at times and had to breathe through my mouth. The strange thing is, people were really nice because I think they could see I was struggling. After everything was almost loaded into the car, there were 2 cases of water left. A man, also wearing a mask, asked if I needed help. At that point, I had already taken mine off, so I walked away from him and accepted his help. I let him know I appreciated it.

Not giving up kept coming into my mind. In all honesty, this song was not among the ones I was searching for, but when I heard the lyrics, it seemed perfect.

While the song is not about PTSD it is about not giving up on someone...as much as it is about them not giving up on you!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Don't Give Up On Me

I will fight

I will fight for you

I always do until my heart

Is black and blue

And I will stay

I will stay with you

We'll make it to the other side

Like lovers do

I'll reach my hands out in the dark

And wait for yours to interlock

I'll wait for you

I'll wait for you

'Cause I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not yet

Even when I'm down to my last breath

Even when they say there's nothin' left

So don't give up on

I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not me

Even when nobody else believes

I'm not goin' down that easily

So don't give up on me

And I will hold

I'll hold onto you

No matter what this world'll throw

It won't shake me loose

I'll reach my hands out in the dark

And wait for yours to interlock

I'll wait for you

I'll wait for you

'Cause I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not yet

Even when I'm down to my last breath

Even when they say there's nothin' left

So don't give up on

I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not me

Even when nobody else believes

I'm not goin' down that easily

So don't give up on me

Whoa, whoa

Whoa, whoa

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yea

I will fight

I will fight for you

I always do until my heart

Is black and blue

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Andrew Charles Grammer / Bram Inscore / Jacob Torrey / San Farrar

Don't Give up on Me lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc, BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. 

Andy Grammer - "Don't Give Up On Me" [Official Video from the Five Feet Apart Film]

PTSD Patrol...do they know you'd help them if you could?

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 21, 2020

(Still sick)

Today I thought it would be a good day to help a family dealing with someone they love, who is hurting, but they do not know how to help them.

It is very difficult to go through it when you know they are suffering but they will not talk to you about it.

Most of the time they are afraid of how you will act or what you will think of them, so they just try to hide their pain.

Sometimes you have to #BreakTheSilence for them!

Open the door by sharing this song with them and let them know, you see what they think they are hiding and will move mountains to help them!

If I Could

Barbra Streisand

If I could

I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes

Give you courage in a world of compromise

Yes, I would

If I could

I would teach you all the things I've never learned

And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned

Yes, I would

If I could

I would try to shield your innocence from time

But the part of life I gave you isn't mine

I've watched you grow

So I could let you go

If I could

I would help you make it through the hungry years

But I know that I can never cry your tears

But I would

If I could

If I live

In a time and place where you don't want to be

You don't have to walk along this road with me

My yesterday

Won't have to be your way

If I knew

I'd have tried to change the world I brought to you to

And there isn't very much that I can do

But I would

If I could

If I could

I would try to shield your innocence from time

But the part of life I gave you isn't mine

I've watched you grow

So I could let you go

If, if I could

I would help you make it through those hungry years

But I know that I can never cry your tears

But I would

If I could

Yes I would

Yes I would

If I could

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Ron Miller / Marti Sharron / Kenneth Hirsch

If I Could lyrics © Sony/atv Songs Llc

Gladys Knight performs in the nation's capitol for a Memorial Day concert. 

PTSD Patrol "But the fighter still remains"

PTSD Patrol

Kathie Costos

September 20, 2020

(Still sick so no video from me today....but you probably need a break from seeing me.)

Simon and Garfunkel THE BOXER is an iconic song of survival! "In the clearing stands a boxer, And a fighter by his trade, And he carries the reminders, Of every glove that laid him down, Or cut him 'til he cried out, In his anger and his shame, 'I am leaving, I am leaving,' But the fighter still remains"

If you have PTSD, then you are a fighter too, not by "trade" or by choice, but by will to live. To not give into something because fighting it is hard. You fight a good match but sometimes you need a tag team to take this opponent on. The thing is, no one ever won anything by themselves. No wars were ever fought by one person. No discoveries were ever made by one person with no one to help them or support them. Inspirations never came from thin air. 

Having a team to help you does not mean they have to have all the answers or even know how to find them. It means they do the best they can to help you learn what you need to, find what you are searching for, and stand by you until the fighter that still remains is strong enough to take on this match too!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

The Boxer

I am just a poor boy

Though my story's seldom told

I have squandered my resistance

For a pocket full of mumbles

Such are promises

All lies and jests

Still a man hears what he wants to hear

And disregards the rest

When I left my home and my family

I was no more than a boy

In the company of strangers

In the quiet of the railway station

Running scared

Laying low, seeking out the poorer quarters

Where the ragged people go

Looking for the places

Only they would know

Lie la lie, lie la la la lie la lie, lie la lie

Lie la la la lie la lie, la la la la lie

Asking only workman's wages

I come looking for a job

But I get no offers

Just a come-on from the whores

On Seventh Avenue

I do declare

There were times when I was so lonesome

I took some comfort there

La la la la la la la

Lie la lie, lie la la la lie la lie, lie la lie

Lie la la la lie la lie, la la la la lie

Then I'm laying out my winter clothes

And wishing I was gone

Going home

Where the New York City winters

Aren't bleeding me

Leading me

Going home

In the clearing stands a boxer

And a fighter by his trade

And he carries the reminders

Of every glove that laid him down

Or cut him 'til he cried out

In his anger and his shame

"I am leaving, I am leaving"

But the fighter still remains

Lie la lie, lie la la la lie la lie, lie la lie....... 

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Paul Simon

The Boxer lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

James Taylor and Alison Krauss pay tribute to Paul Simon at the 2002 Kennedy Centre Honours tribute to Paul Simon.