and the soul felt its worth

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 14, 2020

Wonder what it is like when you begin to heal what PTSD has harmed?

"A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices" 

When does this begin?

"...and the soul felt its worth"

Whenever I have to say what my favorite Christmas song is, it is O Holy Night, because I can listen to it all year round. We just celebrate the Birth of Christ on December 25 but the date He was actually born was not in the Bible. Scholars point to the fact about where He was born and say it was in the Spring, which would make a lot of sense. After all, we know that the Spring is when the world renews life.

"For yonder breaks, a new and glorious morn" 

And then we see a new and glorious morning, when we are actually happy we have another day ahead of us, instead of dreading it.

But how do you get to the point where your soul feels its worth? When you've done and said horrible things, had terrible thoughts, it is hard to think about that day, How do get right with God? By faith and knowing that price was paid for long before you were even born.

To me it doesn't really matter when Christ was born. I know He was and why He was born. I know how He lived, what He taught, how He died and why He died, just as I know He came back to prove that He was who He said He was....the Son Of God.

Believing that, lets us know that our souls were worth all of what He went through to save us!

When you have PTSD, you were saved. Saved by people who came to help you, because you were worth it. Saved by people who came to help you afterwards, because you were worth it. And you have everything you need to heal already inside of you, especially if you got hit by PTSD because you risked your life for someone else.

There is nothing you cannot be forgiven for but the hardest one to get forgiveness from is yourself. Once you do that, then you believe you are worth being happy about being healed.

You live a different life. More compassionate, understanding, kinder, more hopeful and have more patience for others. You love more deeply.

"O hear the angels' voices"

Because He appeared so your soul could feel its worth!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it. #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

O holy night, the stars are brightly shining

It is the night of our dear Savior's birth

Long lay the world, in sin and error pining

'Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth

A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices

For yonder breaks, a new and glorious morn

Fall on your knees

O hear the angels' voices

O night divine

O night when Christ was born

O night divine

O night

O night divine

A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices

For yonder breaks, a new and glorious morn

Fall on your knees

O hear the angels' voices

O night divine

O night when Christ was born

O night divine

O night divine (O night divine)

Ooh, yes it was (O night divine)

Yeah, that is that night of our dear Savior's birth

(O night divine) oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah

(O night divine) it was a holy, holy, holy, oh, oh, oh

(O night divine) yes, it was

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Traditional

O Holy Night lyrics © Downtown Music Publishing, Spirit Music Group, Royalty Network 

HANG ON! These thing take time.

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 13, 2020

HANG ON! These thing take time. Those are part of the lyrics from Needtobreathe's Hang On, and that is a message you need to reminded of when you are trying to heal PTSD, even though the song is not about PTSD.

It took time for everyone who ever healed and it will take time for you. It takes leaps of opened eyed faith to know that you can change how things are for you. You have to learn a way of healing that will take care of all the parts of you...your mind, your body and your spirit.

Things take time, so you also need patience with yourself and others. It took time for PTSD to change you and it will take time to change again. It takes time for you to understand, and it will take time for those around you to understand too. 

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it. 

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

"Hang On"

First touch of summer, she's got your t-shirt on

Sun's going down, schools out, stars are coming on

You can rewind it, but you can't ever feel like you do tonight

Make a movie in your mind, but don't rush it

Boy, you're about to see the light

Hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling

Hang on to your love drunk original reason

Hang on to the small town you love but you're leaving

Oh you won't be a fool for so long

So hang on 

If you listen to the voices inside they won't do you wrong

You can look back over your shoulder, yeah, but don't look too long

It takes time to realize

That your life's gonna pass you by

So hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling

Hang on to your love drunk original reason

So hang on to the small town you love but you're leaving

'Cause you won't be a fool for so long

Oh, these things they take time

And all these things take time, these things they take time

And all these things I've learned, it's never a straight line

'Cause all these things take time, these things they take time

So hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling

Hang on to your love drunk original reason

'Cause all these things take time, these things they take time

And all these things I've learned, it's never a straight line

So hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling

So hang on to your love drunk original reason

So hang on to the small town you love but you're leaving

Oh you won't be a fool for so long

So hang on

(All these things they take time)

Hang on

(All these things they take time)

Hang on

(All these things they take time)

(AZ Lyrics) 

bonus song

Who Am I

White lights and desperation

Hard times and conversation

No one should ever love me like you do

Sometimes my bad decisions

Define my false suspicions

No one should ever love me like you do

While I'm on this road you take my hand

Somehow you really love who I really am

I push you away, still you won't let go

You grow your roses on my barren soul

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

Last night, confidence was shaken

My wounds and my past was saying

No one should ever love me like you do

While I'm on this road you take my hand

Somehow you really love who I really am

I push you away, still you won't let go

You grow your roses on my barren soul

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

The way I push you through it, what you had to see

I'm a train wreck, I'm a mess, you see the best

And the worst in me

Still I can't imagine that I've learned your trust

I don't understand where your love comes from

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Who am I, who am I, who am I

To be loved by you

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Nathaniel Rinehart / William Rinehart

Who Am I lyrics © Downtown Music Publishing 

PTSD Patrol Superstition ain't the way

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 12, 2020

Do you still believe something that you don't understand? If you don't understand PTSD, then you probably believe a lot of things that are not true.

When people believe in lies, they either trust the person they heard it from...or they want to believe it, and then they suffer.

If you have PTSD, you are not mentally weak, not defective, not stuck that way, and not being punished by God. It means you survived something the others don't understand.

If you haven't learned what it is by now, that is your fault but there is a remedy for that and it is fixed by doing some basic research.

If you finally stopped denying you have PTSD and sought help, but the treatment didn't work, that does not mean you are untreatable. That is why there are so many different types of treatment.

If you went on medication that made you feel worse or you couldn't tolerate the side effects, that doesn't mean that you a beyond help. That is why there are many different medications and combinations.

If you went to a support group that didn't help, that doesn't mean you don't belong in a group, it just means you were in the wrong one. That is why there are many different groups out there.

These things are all there after over 40 years because they work! Keep looking for the one that works for  you and stop believing nonsense!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Five Common False Beliefs About Trauma from Psychology Today, Mary C. Vance, MD 

1. "So many people have had it worse than I did. I shouldn't be complaining."
2. "My trauma defines me. It affects everything I think, feel, and do."
3. "I don't have PTSD, so what happened couldn't have been that bad."
4. "They told me this therapy would be effective for PTSD, but it didn't help me at all. There must be something wrong with me."
5. "Getting over it is too hard. I'll be stuck like this forever."

Why do people knock on wood for luck?

In many cultures, it’s a common superstition for people to knock their knuckles on a piece of wood to bring themselves good fortune or ward off bad luck. Yet while the phrase “knock on wood”—or “touch wood” in Britain—has been part of the vernacular since at the least the 19th century, there seems to be little agreement on how it originated. One common explanation traces the phenomenon to ancient pagan cultures such as the Celts, who believed that spirits and gods resided in trees. Knocking on tree trunks may have served to rouse the spirits and call on their protection, but it could have also been a way of showing gratitude for a stroke of good luck. Yet another theory is that people knocked on wood to chase away evil spirits or prevent them from listening in when they boasted about their luck, thereby preventing a reversal of fortune. Christians, meanwhile, have often linked the practice to the wood of the cross from Christ’s crucifixion.

Very superstitious,

Writing's on the wall,

Very superstitious,

Ladders bout' to fall,

Thirteen month old baby,

Broke the lookin' glass

Seven years of bad luck,

The good things in your past

When you believe in things

That you don't understand,

Then you suffer,

Superstition aint the way

Hey

Very superstitious,

Wash your face and hands,

Rid me of the problem,

Do all that you can,

Keep me in a daydream,

Keep me goin' strong,

You don't wanna save me,

Sad is the soul

When you believe in things

That you don't understand,

Then you suffer,

Superstition ain't the way,

Yeh, yeh

Very superstitious,

Nothin' more to say,

Very superstitious,

The devil's on his way,

Thirteen month old baby,

Broke the lookin' glass,

Seven years of bad luck,

Good things in your past

When you believe in things

That you don't understand,

Then you suffer,

Superstition ain't the way,

No, no, no

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Stevie Wonder

Superstition lyrics © Jobete Music Co., Inc. 

God's Promise I Will Rescue You

PTDF Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 11, 2020

First, we need to face some facts. Some people suck. They are the last to help anyone but the first who expect help from everyone. They refuse to lift anyone up, but expect it from everyone else. While they have a soul, just like every other person on the planet, they refuse to be moved by it to help anyone unless they can get something out of it. They seek power, money, publicity and pats on the back. You know the type...because there are too many of them out there.

But the other fact is, there are more people out there, who care. They are the first to rush to help, and the last to ask for it. Most find it easier to ask for help for someone else, instead of for themselves. When they do need help, and as for it, but it does not come, it can be more devastating for them, because they will not be able to help someone else, unless someone rescues them.

I have been running into this all my life. While I'll help everyone in whatever way I can, most of the time I don't get any. I lost count how many times someone reached out to me online and promised they would help me financially and help me reach more people, but they never did. I blamed them, not God because I know God sent them to me in the first place, or they wouldn't have bothered to reach out at all.

We have God's promise He will not abandon us, but when the people He tries to send do not listen to Him, we end up blaming God and wonder what we did wrong. We have His promise that He will send an army to help us and it is not His fault they went AWOL. Don't lose faith in Him, because He does hear your prayers. Until He can get someone to help you, He will give you peace so that you know He is there and faithful, even though people are not. He will give you strength to get through whatever it is you are up against, so that you do not give up. 

If you have PTSD, know that He is trying to get people to help you. He is trying to get them to hear your cries for help and will not give up. Take what He can provide as a blessing until those who He is trying to send, show up!

Take comfort in this beautiful song because I know I did. I woke in a bad mood things morning and was lifted up by this song and Lauren Daigle's beautiful voice Rescue!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Lauren Daigle - Rescue (Official Music Video) 

You are not hidden

There's never been a moment

You were forgotten

You are not hopeless

Though you have been broken

Your innocence stolen

I hear you whisper underneath your breath

I hear your SOS, your SOS

I will send out an army to find you

In the middle of the darkest night

It's true, I will rescue you

There is no distance

That cannot be covered

Over and over

You're not defenseless

I'll be your shelter

I'll be your armor

I hear you whisper underneath your breath

I hear your SOS, your SOS

I will send out an army to find you

In the middle of the darkest night

It's true, I will rescue you

I will never stop marching to reach you

In the middle of the hardest fight

It's true, I will rescue you

I hear the whisper underneath your breath

I hear you whisper, you have nothing left

I will send out an army to find you

In the middle of the darkest night

It's true, I will rescue you

I will never stop marching to reach you

In the middle of the hardest fight

It's true, I will rescue you

Oh, I will rescue you

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Jason Ingram / Paul Mabury / Lauren Daigle

Rescue lyrics © Essential Music Publishing 

Let The Sun Shine In

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 10, 2020

Worlds align this winter solstice: Look for Jupiter, Saturn in December skies

“Alignments between these two planets are rather rare, occurring once every 20 years or so, but this conjunction is exceptionally rare because of how close the planets will appear to one another,” Hartigan said.

“You’d have to go all the way back to just before dawn on March 4, 1226, to see a closer alignment between these objects visible in the night sky.”

Astronomers call what we'll witness on Dec. 21 a "conjunction." From asteroids or moons to planets and stars, a conjunction is when two objects in space appear to be close to each other as observed from Earth. In the reality of space, they're still hundreds of millions of miles apart.

Ever since I read that Jupiter and Saturn were going to align, I keep thinking about the 5th Dimension and Aquarius. In the song it is Jupiter and Mars but there is a part of the song that talks about friends walking away. 

If your friends walked away, they were not really your friends. Safe bet, if it you noticed one of your friends struggling with something, you'd ask them what is going on...let them know you were ready to listen and then offer to help them.

Struggling to heal PTSD can suck. It can feel as if you are doing it all alone. That is why you need to find a support group so you can be with people like you. Then you can not just find support and comfort, you can deliver it to them as well.

Let this next year be a new beginning for you when you let the sun shine in to replace the darkness you have been living with.

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it.

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Aquarius / Let the Sunshine In

The 5th Dimension 

When the moon is in the Seventh House

And Jupiter aligns with Mars

Then peace will guide the planets

And love will steer the stars

This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius

Age of Aquarius

Aquarius

Aquarius

Harmony and understanding

Sympathy and trust abounding

No more falsehoods or derisions

Golden living dreams of visions

Mystic crystal revelation

And the mind's true liberation

Aquarius

Aquarius

When the moon is in the Seventh House

And Jupiter aligns with Mars

Then peace will guide the planets

And love will steer the stars

This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius

Age of Aquarius

Aquarius

Aquarius

Aquarius

Aquarius

Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in

Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in

Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in

Oh, let it shine, c'mon

Now everybody just sing along

Let the sun shine in

Open up your heart and let it shine on in

When you are lonely, let it shine on

Got to open up your heart and let it shine on in

And when you feel like you've been mistreated

And your friends turn away

Just open your heart, and shine it on in

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: James Rado / Gerome Ragni / Galt Mac Dermot

Aquarius / Let the Sunshine In (The Flesh Failures) lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC