PTSD Patrol The Voice

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 16, 2020

I was reading that more veterans committed suicide and I had to shut down the computer, and walk away. I just couldn't stand it. How can all this still be happening? It is because for all the people out there,like me, for years with the knowledge and experience are not involved in anything they are doing. The people doing the planning are not interested in what works. 

VA PREVENTS

The plan focuses on improved research into veteran suicide, increased suicide-prevention training and new partnerships between government agencies and outside organizations. Some veterans groups and lawmakers have criticized the plan for not being bold enough.

Sherman Gillums, chief advocacy officer for AMVETS, said the impact of PREVENTS so far “hasn’t lived up to expectation.”

“The roadmap for preventing suicide at all levels remains in the abstract, with no real practical application,” he said.

Despite efforts in Washington and continued boosts to VA funding, the rates of veteran suicide have shown no sign of slowing. Between 2005 and 2017, 78,875 veterans took their own lives — more than the number of Americans killed in each major conflict except for World War II and the Civil War.

Anyway, it made me think about a friend of mine who told me one day, he came close to committing suicide the night before. When I asked him why he didn't call me, he said he didn't have to. My voice was already in his head.

What are the voices in your head? Are they filling you with doubts and making you feel worse or are they filling you up with hope and making you feel better?

Today the feature video is Celtic Women The Voice.

Remember it is your life....get in and drive! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

I hear your voice on the wind

And I here you call out my name

"Listen my child, " you say to me

"I am the voice of your history

Be not afraid, come follow me

Answer my call and I'll set you free"

I am the voice in the wind and the pouring rain

I am the voice of your hunger and pain

I am the voice that always is calling you

I am the voice, I will remain

I am the voice in the fields when the summer's gone

The dance of the leaves when the autumn winds blow

Ne'er do I sleep throughout all the cold winter long

I am the force that in springtime will grow

I am the voice of the past that will always be

Filled with my sorrow and blood in my fields

I am the voice of the future

Bring me your peace

Bring me your peace and my wounds, they will heal

I am the voice in the wind and the pouring rain

I am the voice of your hunger and pain

I am the voice that always is calling you

I am the voice

I am the voice in the past that will always be

I am the voice of your hunger and pain

I am the voice of the future

I am the voice

I am the voice

I am the voice

I am the voice

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Brendan Graham

The Voice lyrics © Peermusic Publishing 

Healthcare workers vs wusses

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 15, 2020

This is not going to be one of those happy, uplifting messages. I am pissed off! I am so tired of people running around the country, so selfish and filled with hate that those who take care of others out of love, are suffering and wondering when the day will come for them to have some time to rest. 

Spend all your time waiting

For that second chance

For a break that would make it okay

There's always some reason

To feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day....  Harder than it has to be because these wussy babies whine about not wanting to wear a fricken mask! So you have to suffer, people have to spend months in ICU units and others have to wait for the call to let them know someone they loved, will never come home.

A four year old lost both of his parents because of COVID 19 and his family is pleading with people to put a mask on. Thinking about what this child will grow up carrying with him, knowing that selfish people didn't care they spread this killer and let his parents be taken away from him, we just too much for me today!

SAN ANTONIO (KXAN/NBC) — A four-year-old in San Antonio has lost both his mother and his father to COVID-19.

Raiden Gonzalez’s mother Mariah died from COVID-19 in October, just a few months after the disease killed his father Adan.

Raidan’s relatives say the deaths have been devastating to the boy who is supposed to celebrate his fifth birthday in just a few days.

Raiden’s great-aunt says, “We’ve lost two people now to COVID-19 and I can’t emphasize enough the severity, the seriousness and the hurt that this pandemic can cause, so wear your mask, be safe.”

Healers and protectors in isolation right now need to help each other is a post I put up a while ago and have not done one about what you are going through. I am sorry and on behalf of the people who do appreciate everything you are willing to do, we also know that there is no need of you going through most of this crap right now if people would stop whining about what they want to do! The rest of us are waiting to do what we want to do because they refuse to stop putting themselves first~

Spend all your time waiting

For that second chance

For a break that would make it okay

There's always some reason

To feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

Oh, beautiful release

Memories seep from my veins

Let me be empty

Oh, and weightless, and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel

Fly away from here

From this dark, cold, hotel room

And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie

You're in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line

And everywhere you turn

There's vultures and thieves at your back

The storm keeps on twisting

That you make up for all that you lack

It don't make no difference

Escaping one last time

It's easier to believe in this sweet madness

Oh, this glorious sadness

That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel

Fly away from here

From this dark, cold, hotel room

And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie

You're in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort here

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Sarah McLachlan

Angel lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, BMG Rights Management, Universal Music Publishing Group 

PTSD Patrol racing with destiny

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 14, 2020 

I broke my heart

Fought every gain

To taste the sweet

I face the pain

I rise and fall

Yet through it all

This much remains

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel

I will feel eternity

Those are the words from the feature video today, the incomparable Whitney Houston's One Moment In Time.

Do those words sound like you and your life now? If you've been watching these videos and discovering what you needed to know about PTSD, I believe you see yourself clearly.

Beginning to taste the sweet may be even sweeter because of the bitterness you used to know. It may be because the pain you felt for far too long has also made you feel this aliveness more profoundly. 

I hope you have far more than one moment in time discovering you can be more than you thought you could be, and if you do, pass it on so others can have these moments too!

Remember it is your life and you need to get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Each day I live

I want to be

A day to give

The best of me

I'm only one

But not alone

My finest day

Is yet unknown

I broke my heart

Fought every gain

To taste the sweet

I face the pain

I rise and fall

Yet through it all

This much remains

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel

I will feel eternity

I've lived to be

The very best

I want it all

No time for less

I've laid the plans

Now lay the chance

Here in my hands

Give me one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will feel

I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime

If you seize that one moment in time

Make it shine

Give me one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment of time

I will be

I will be

I will be free

I will be

I will be free

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Albert Louis Hammond / John Bettis

One Moment in Time lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. 

PTSD Patrol dancing in the driver's seat

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 13, 2020

Friday the 13th in this crazy year of 2020....most people think it is an unlucky day. The Scotsman has a great article on this.

Why is number 13 considered unlucky?
‘Unlucky 13’ has been a superstition since the middle ages when Christians associated it with the number of guests at the last supper - the night before Jesus was crucified.
Judas, the 13th guest to attend the dinner, betrayed Jesus.

For me, I don't look at it that way. I look at it as possibilities because of what Jesus and the 12 managed to do in 3 short years, along with the 72 others. 72 others? Yes. It is in Luke 10

Jesus Sends Out the Seventy-Two
10 After this the Lord appointed seventy-two[a] others and sent them two by two ahead of him to every town and place where he was about to go. 2 He told them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field. 3 Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves. 

There are a lot of things the most people think are true, and let others form their own thoughts instead of letting you find your own. If they tell you that you are doomed because you have PTSD or will have an unlucky life, or worse, are suffering because you deserve it, they know nothing. It may make them feel better taking you down or seeing you suffer but you are the only one who can defeat their delusion and prove them wrong.

You are on the road to healing and can leave them behind if they will not help you. Or, you can help them be happy too. That is also in your power to decide.

Stress is also something that you can decide to have or let go of, even if it is only for a little while.

I was driving earlier today and feeling stress in my neck when the song from Taste of Honey came on. I ended up dancing in the driver's seat. The rest of the drive home, was stress free.

Music can do that if you let it. Everyday find a song that makes you want to dance, even if it is in your chair. Let it lift you up from the mood you were in, even if it only lasts for a little while.

The more you do it, the more you take power away from PTSD and feed the power that does in fact belong to you.

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD 

If you're thinkin' you're too cool to boogie

Boy oh boy have I got news for you

Everybody here tonight must boogie

Let me tell ya, you are no exception to the rule

Get on up, on the floor 'Cause we're gonna boogie oogie oogie

'Till you just can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

You can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

Listen to the music

There's no time to waste let's get the show on the road

Listen to the music and let your body flow

The sooner we begin the longer we got to groove

Listen to the music and let your body move

Now get on up, on the floor

'Cause we're gonna boogie oogie oogie

'Till you just can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

You can't boogie no more

Ah boogie, boogie no more

Listen to my bass here

Get down boogie oogie oogie

Get down boogie oogie oogie

Get down boogie oogie oogie

Get down

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Janice Marie Johnson / Perry Kibble

Boogie Oogie Oogie - Single Version 2; Digitally Remastered 99 lyrics © Music Sales Corporation 

Bonus from The Addams Family!

a monster classic.. Nobody But Me / Human Beinz ..addams family ..carolyn jones .. lurch .. gomez

PTSD Patrol Stopping These Dreams

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 12, 2020

But all I remember

Are the dreams in the mist

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Today the feature video is Heart These Dreams.

Every second of the night you do live another life when you have PTSD. Your dreams end up being nightmares because in the darkness, it tries to take over. Like when a young child dreams about monsters under their bed, it returns. 

One parent may tell them that monsters are not real, then tell them to get back in their bed. A smart parent will explain that monster is a coward because it is afraid of the light. They say, "Turn the light on, stomp your feet on the floor and tell that coward to go away."

You can change the nightmares by turning on the light and confronting that monster with the knowledge of where its power comes from. Take that power away and stop feeding it with your fear. Repel it with knowing that you survived it and there is no way in hell you will let it take over the life you have waiting for you to live!

Remember, it is your life....get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

Spare a little candle

Save some light for me

Figures up ahead

Moving in the trees

White skin in linen

Perfume on my wrist

And the full moon that hangs over

These dreams in the mist

Darkness on the edge

Shadows where I stand

I search for the time

On a watch with no hands

I want to see you clearly

Come closer than this

But all I remember

Are the dreams in the mist

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Is it cloak and dagger

Could it be spring or fall?

I walk without a cut

Through a stained glass wall

Weaker in my eyesight

The candle in my grip

And words that have no form

Are falling from my lips

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

There's something out there

I can't resist

I need to hide away from the pain

There's something out there

I can't resist

The sweetest song is silence

That I've ever heard

Funny how your feet

In dreams never touch the earth

In a wood full of princes

Freedom is a kiss

But the prince hides his face

From dreams in the mist

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Bernie Taupin / Martin Page

These Dreams lyrics © Little Mole Music, Imagem London Ltd., Concord Copyrights London Limited