After last night, if you watched the horrible debate, it is a good time to be reminded of the fact that things are not as horrible as was on display. We do have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to look forward to. We've been through hard times in our lives. The thing that started PTSD was hard, but as you have seen, things to get a little easier and get a lot brighter.
That is why I picked "Ooo Child" for the feature video today. We can "walk in the rays of a beautiful sun again" and our "heads can be a lot lighter." #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
Ooh child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh child
Things'll get brighter
Ooh child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh child
Things'll get brighter
Some day, yeah
We'll put it together and we'll get it undone
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter........
There was a time when all I had time for was praying to God that my pain would end. It is one thing to have physical pain, but when you have spiritual pain, that wrecks everything!
It may sound strange to you, but there are a lot of "love" songs that I find spiritually healing.
There are a lot of love songs that mean something deeper to me. There is a spiritual connection made with many of them. The feature video today is Carlie Simon "I Haven't Got Time For The Pain."
When I was having a really hard time spiritually, this song made me feel more hopeful about the next minutes in time. If you thing about some songs that mean more to you than others, you'll know exactly what I mean. So when you are in spiritual pain, find a song that makes you feel relief and you won't have time for the pain because you are filling yourself up with hope! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
All those crazy nights when I cried myself to sleep
Now melodrama never makes me weep anymore
'cause I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you
You showed me how, how to leave myself behind
How to turn down the noise in my mind
Now I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you
Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive
Though that's just how much it cost to survive in this world
'til you showed me how, how to fill my heart with love
Sometimes we have to honor our pain and loneliness. That is why I picked Neil Diamond I AM I SAID for the feature video today.
There was a report on military suicides being 20% higher than last year. That was like a dagger to my heart because I dedicated 38 years of my life to that cause. With all the nonsense getting the attention online, they couldn't find me anymore, so I thought as a 10 time civilian survivor, I may be of more use to regular people like me. With over 8 million Americans diagnosed with PTSD, they are getting less attention than the veterans. Right now, I am taking my own advise and honoring my feelings to go toward healing afterwards. #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
Yesterday there was a system update for my computer...it crashed! It took all day to fix it. Sorry for no video or posts for a couple of days but working on fixing the rest.
(Feeling better and should be doing videos again tomorrow)
My husband and I have been married 36 years as of this month. Throughout all of the years, there is one thing that never stopped...and that is love for one another. Sometimes I don't like him and times he does not like me, but we never stopped loving.
Keep in mind that when we met, I knew what surviving trauma was like, but did not know about PTSD. By the time we got married, I knew all I needed to know and loved him even more than before. If you love someone, then you do whatever you can to help make their life easier and better because you were in it. If you really love them, then do the work to help them be happier!
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
The song Long Train Running kept popping into my medicated brain because "without love where would you be now" is a question I never want to answer......
The Doobie Brothers - Long Train Running (official video)
Down around the corner, half a mile from here
See them long trains run, and you watch them disappear
Without love, where would you be now
Without lo-o-o-ove
You know I saw miss Lucy down along the tracks
She lost her home and her family and she won't be coming back
Without love, where would you be right now
Without lo-o-o-ove
Well the Illinois Central
And the Southern Central Freight
Got to keep on pushin' mama
You know they're running late
Without love, where would you be now
Without lo-o-o-ve
Well the Illinois Central
And the Southern Central Freight
Got to keep on pushin' mama
You know they're running late
Without love, where would you be now
Without lo-o-o-ve
Well the pistons keep on turning
And the wheels go round and round
The steel rails are cold and hard
For the miles that they go down
Without love, where would you be right now
Without lo-o-o-ve ooh
Where would you be now
Mmm, got to get you, baby baby, won't you move it down?
Won't you move it down?
Baby, baby, baby, baby, won't you move it down?
When the big train run
When the train is movin' on I got to keep on movin'
These are troubling times in this country. It makes it worse if you are struggling to heal PTSD. People can be very cruel no matter what you do. They misjudge you, walk away from you and blame you for what is lousy in their own lives.
It does not change because decades do. What does change is those who refuse to learn from the past, will forever be relegated to ranks of other feeble minded fools throughout history. In other words, the problem is not yours....it belongs to them.
Sometimes we find comfort knowing someone else understands what we are going through. It is just as necessary as knowing we can get out of the dark times too.
If you are on social media, and feel worse being with people you know, stop going into those groups.
Notice what they say and how they treat others, because that is how they show their true self.
Then break free from them because they will suck the life and joy out of you, wasting your time when you could be finding someone to give you hope again...and help you #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
(Yes, still sick but feeling better.)
Easy To Be Hard
Three Dog Night
How can people be so heartless
How can people be so cruel
Easy to be hard
Easy to be cold
How can people have no feelings
How can they ignore their friends
Easy to be proud
Easy to say no
Especially people who care about strangers
Who care about evil and social injustice
Do you only care about being proud
How about I need a friend, I need a friend
How can people be so heartless
You know I'm hung up on you
Easy to be proud
Easy to say no
Especially people who care about strangers
Who care about evil and social injustice
Do you only care about being proud
How about I need a friend, I need a friend
How can people be so heartless
How can people be so cruel
Easy to be proud, easy to say no
Easy to be gone, easy to say no
Come on, easy to get read
Easy to say no
But too easy to be cold
Easy to say no
But too easy to say no
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Galt Mac Dermot / Gerome Ragni / James Rado
(Still sick and now pulled muscles from coughing....)
I was thinking about what video to put up today along with knowing one from me wouldn't be a good idea. Wouldn't be very inspirational. Today I went grocery shopping because the meds were helping enough that I could breathe easier.
I had my mask on, which was good since I was coughing at times and had to breathe through my mouth. The strange thing is, people were really nice because I think they could see I was struggling. After everything was almost loaded into the car, there were 2 cases of water left. A man, also wearing a mask, asked if I needed help. At that point, I had already taken mine off, so I walked away from him and accepted his help. I let him know I appreciated it.
Not giving up kept coming into my mind. In all honesty, this song was not among the ones I was searching for, but when I heard the lyrics, it seemed perfect.
While the song is not about PTSD it is about not giving up on someone...as much as it is about them not giving up on you!
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
Don't Give Up On Me
I will fight
I will fight for you
I always do until my heart
Is black and blue
And I will stay
I will stay with you
We'll make it to the other side
Like lovers do
I'll reach my hands out in the dark
And wait for yours to interlock
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
'Cause I'm not givin' up
I'm not givin' up, givin' up
No, not yet
Even when I'm down to my last breath
Even when they say there's nothin' left
So don't give up on
I'm not givin' up
I'm not givin' up, givin' up
No, not me
Even when nobody else believes
I'm not goin' down that easily
So don't give up on me
And I will hold
I'll hold onto you
No matter what this world'll throw
It won't shake me loose
I'll reach my hands out in the dark
And wait for yours to interlock
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
'Cause I'm not givin' up
I'm not givin' up, givin' up
No, not yet
Even when I'm down to my last breath
Even when they say there's nothin' left
So don't give up on
I'm not givin' up
I'm not givin' up, givin' up
No, not me
Even when nobody else believes
I'm not goin' down that easily
So don't give up on me
Whoa, whoa
Whoa, whoa
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yea
I will fight
I will fight for you
I always do until my heart
Is black and blue
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Andrew Charles Grammer / Bram Inscore / Jacob Torrey / San Farrar
(Still sick so no video from me today....but you probably need a break from seeing me.)
Simon and Garfunkel THE BOXER is an iconic song of survival! "In the clearing stands a boxer, And a fighter by his trade, And he carries the reminders, Of every glove that laid him down, Or cut him 'til he cried out, In his anger and his shame, 'I am leaving, I am leaving,' But the fighter still remains"
If you have PTSD, then you are a fighter too, not by "trade" or by choice, but by will to live. To not give into something because fighting it is hard. You fight a good match but sometimes you need a tag team to take this opponent on. The thing is, no one ever won anything by themselves. No wars were ever fought by one person. No discoveries were ever made by one person with no one to help them or support them. Inspirations never came from thin air.
Having a team to help you does not mean they have to have all the answers or even know how to find them. It means they do the best they can to help you learn what you need to, find what you are searching for, and stand by you until the fighter that still remains is strong enough to take on this match too!
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
The Boxer
I am just a poor boy
Though my story's seldom told
I have squandered my resistance
For a pocket full of mumbles
Such are promises
All lies and jests
Still a man hears what he wants to hear
And disregards the rest
When I left my home and my family
I was no more than a boy
In the company of strangers
In the quiet of the railway station
Running scared
Laying low, seeking out the poorer quarters
Where the ragged people go
Looking for the places
Only they would know
Lie la lie, lie la la la lie la lie, lie la lie
Lie la la la lie la lie, la la la la lie
Asking only workman's wages
I come looking for a job
But I get no offers
Just a come-on from the whores
On Seventh Avenue
I do declare
There were times when I was so lonesome
I took some comfort there
La la la la la la la
Lie la lie, lie la la la lie la lie, lie la lie
Lie la la la lie la lie, la la la la lie
Then I'm laying out my winter clothes
And wishing I was gone
Going home
Where the New York City winters
Aren't bleeding me
Leading me
Going home
In the clearing stands a boxer
And a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders
Of every glove that laid him down
Or cut him 'til he cried out
In his anger and his shame
"I am leaving, I am leaving"
But the fighter still remains
Lie la lie, lie la la la lie la lie, lie la lie.......
Yesterday I did not post anything because I was dealing with emergency care for a sinus infection and bronchitis. Thankfully the staff at Wentworth Douglas were spot on because I am feeling better today. The meds are helping. That is why today, the featured video is Huey Lewis and The News "I Want A New Drug."
If the meds you are getting for #PTSD are not helping, talk to your doctors so they try something else to help you. Remember, that is why they are there..... Something may work for a buddy, but that does not mean it will work for you. Keep trying!
Oh
I want a new drug, one that won't make me sick
One that won't make me crash my car
Or make me feel feet, feet, feet thick
I want a new drug, one that won't hurt my head
One that won't make my mouth too dry
Or make my eyes too red
One that won't make me nervous
Wonderin' what to do
One that makes me feel like I feel when I'm with you
When I'm alone with you
I want a new drug, one that won't spill
One that don't cost too much
Or come in a pill
I want a new drug, one that won't go away
One that won't keep me up all night
One that won't make me sleep all day
One that won't make me nervous
Wonderin' what to do
One that makes me feel like I feel when I'm with you
I'm alone with you
I'm alone with you, baby
I want a new drug, one that does what it should
One that won't make me feel too bad
One that won't make me feel too good
I want a new drug, one with no doubt
One that won't make me talk to much
Or make my face break out
One that won't make me nervous
Wonderin' what to do
One that makes me feel like I feel when I'm with you
Today's featured video is Gloria Estefan Coming Out of the Dark...which is exactly what healing #PTSD is like. You may be afraid of the changes you went through after surviving but healing does not have to something to be afraid of if you are not alone. Like the lyrics say, "Why be afraid if I'm not alone...life is never easy. The rest is unknown."
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from PTSD
Why be afraid if I'm not alone
Though life is never easy the rest is unknown
Up to now for me it's been hands against stone
Spent each and every moment
Searching for what to believe
Coming out of the dark, I finally see the light now
It's shining on me
Coming out of the dark I know the love that saved me
You're sharing with me
Starting again is part of the plan
And I'll be so much stronger holding your hand
Step by step I'll make it through I know I can
It may not make it easier but I have felt you
Near all the way
Coming out of the dark, I finally see the light now
And it's shining on me (I see the light, I see the light)
See the light (I see the light)
Coming out of the dark I know the love that saved me
You're sharing with me
I stand on the rock of your love
(Forever and ever)
Can't nobody stop me from watching
(Forever, and ever) I stand on the rock of your love
Love is all it takes, no matter what we face
coming out of the dark
I see the light, I feel love shinning on me (shining, shining)
Shining on me
Coming out of the dark I know the love that saved me
You're sharing, you're sharing with me, sharing with me, sharing with me
Coming out of the dark
Making it into the light
Your love shining on me, shining on me, shining on me
Coming out of the dark
I see the light, I see the light (I see the light)
I used this song back in 2006 when I started doing videos for veterans.
Why be afraid if you're not alone? Life is never easy, the rest is unknown. The song is by Gloria Estefan and the first time I heard it, all I could think about were the Vietnam veterans I spent so much time with including my husband. You are not alone fighting to heal PTSD just as you were not alone during combat.
Today the featured video is a bit different. If is from the movie Bruce Almighty when God gave him the power to do all kinds of things. When you survive whatever caused your #PTSD, you have the power to heal as a survivor already inside of you. The very fact you are watching these videos means you have the power of hope already and that is the start of living a happier life.
Just imagine that you are Bruce and God knew that you would use your power for good eventually. Want to change the world? Then start with yourself and spread the message of healing to others, so they can change the world too!
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife
It may not be easy....but it can happen if you believe!
If you think there is no hope of a happier life then it is more like a nightmare that doesn't stop. If you know you can heal. then it's more like making your wildest dream come true. Hope is why you survived whatever caused PTSD and hope will help you heal now 🙏
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
but no one knows where our journey will end. The only thing we have power over, is one moment to the next and how we intend to travel through this life we have.
You can "work your way through the darkness" and get back into the light. You can have your pain and your happiness, by letting the happiness get stronger so it reduces the power of your pain.
I usually end my videos with "It's your life. Get in and drive." because that is what you need to be hearing most of all. You do have the power to change the road you're on and define how you want to live your life!
Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
I hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans
I wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life's a game made for everyone
And love is the prize
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Tim Bergling / Michael Aaron Einziger / Egbert Nathaniel Dawkins
"Drivin' my life away" is something a lot of people feel as if it explains their lives.
The song Drivin' My Life Away came on and I thought how appropriate it was to explain what healing #PTSD is like. Looking for a better way and brighter days is what you are doing right now. Celebrate that!
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife
Well the midnight headlights blind you on a rainy night
Steep grade up ahead, slow me down, makin' no time,
But I got to keep rollin'
Those windshield wipers slappin' out a tempo,
Keepin' perfect rhythm with the song on the radio,
But I got to keep rollin'
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a better way for me
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a sunny day
Well the truck stop cutie comin' on to me,
Tried to talk me into a ride
Said I wouldn't be sorry
But she was just a baby
Hey, waitress, pour me another cup of coffee,
Pop it down, jack me up, shoot me out, flyin' down the highway,
Lookin' for the mornin'
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a better way for me
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a sunny day
Well the midnight headlights blind you on a rainy night
Steep grade up ahead, slow me down, makin' no time,
But I got to keep rollin'
Those windshield wipers slappin' out a tempo,
Keepin' perfect rhythm with the song on the radio,
But I got to keep rollin'
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a better way for me
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a sunny day
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a better way for me
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a sunny day, yeah
Ooh, I'm drivin' my life away, lookin' for a better way for me
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: David Malloy / Eddie Rabbitt / Even Stevens
Some people refuse to think about others and learn what the facts are about everything. Just like they are with COVID 19, they refuse to believe the truth and demand to do what they want to do. With PTSD they refuse to learn anything and then think they are smart.
We know they can get in the way of healing, so remember if they cared, they would learn. Their opinion is not based on facts, so their opinion should hold no power over you.
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
On the road again
I just can't wait to get on the road again
The life I love is makin' music with my friends
And I can't wait to get on the road again
On the road again
Goin' places that I've never been
Seein' things that I may never see again
And I can't wait to get on the road again
Here we go, on the road again
Like a band of Gypsies we go down the highway
We're the best of friends
Insisting that the world keep turnin' our way
And our way is on the road again
I just can't wait to get on the road again
The life I love is makin' music with my friends
And I can't wait to get on the road again, break free
I finally did it! I started my own business! It is a writing service called Moral Mortal and will also be a public service coming under PTSD Patrol. Anything I do on that part will be for anyone in public service and they will receive huge discounts.
When someone you love has PTSD it is lonely and scary for them. You are the only one who knows what they are like and if you love them enough to fight for them.
Go your own way and stop listening to your friends, learn how to help them heal and get some power tools to help you do it.
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
Today there are two feature videos on how life can change for the better. My life changed many times over the years but some songs still touched me. Melissa Manchester Come In From The Rain held different meaning as my life changed. I bet there are songs that did the same for you.
#PTSD only has the power you let it have....#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife
Come In From The Rain
Lyrics
Well, hello there
Good old friend of mine
You've been reaching for yourself
For such a long time
There's so much to say
No need to explain
Just an open door for you
To come in from the rain
It's a long road
When you're all alone
And someone like you
Will always take the long way home
There's no right or wrong
I'm not here to blame
I just want to be the one
Who keep you from the rain
From the rain
And it looks like sunny skies
Now that I know you're alright
Time has left us
Older
And wiser
I know I am
'Cause I think of us
Like an old cliche
But it doesn't matter
'Cause I love you anyway
Come in from the rain
And it looks like sunny skies
Now that I know you're alright
Time has left us
Older
But Wiser
I know I am
And it's good to know
My best friend has come home again
And I think of us
Like an old cliche
But it doesn't matter
'Cause I love you anyway
Come in from the rain
Come in from the rain
Come in from the rain
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Carole Bayer Sager / Melissa Manchester / Melissa Toni Manchester
